I wish I was...Too dead to cry

The self-affliction fades

Stones to throw at my creator

Masochist to which I cater

You don't need to bother

I don't need to breathe

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I'm done

I won't let go till it bleeds

I wish I was

Too dead to care

If indeed I cared at all

Never had a voice to protest

So you fed me shit to digest

I wish I had a reason

My flaws are open seasoned

For this I gave up trying

One good time deserves my dying

I wish I died Instead of lived

A zombie hides my face

Shelf forgotten with it's memories

Dire is left with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I'm gone

I'll never live down my disease