If ever you had said to me before

That I would lead this life

That I am living now I guess it's all so strange

To feel the way I do inside and

Have so much that I could feel some

Pride for in my life so why is it that

I feel like this



Chorus:

How do I feel? I've been here before

I've felt this

Retreat to a place a place within me I need this

Keep it all down bottled inside it breaks me

to torment again and

Torture me like it used to



I try and try to break away from all the hate

I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever

Done me wrong I need to justify the reasons

For the way I'm living I guess I can't cause

I don't feel like I deserve it



Chorus:

How do I feel? I've been here before

I've felt this

Retreat to a place a place within me I need this

Keep it all down bottled inside it breaks me

to torment again and

Torture me like it used to



So now the waves they have subsided

And my soul is bleeding

I can't take away all the shame I feel

Forgive me