You could say I feel this way

'Cause it's the way i feel

Or you could say I make it up

I wanted to be real



I knew I'd go down today

And crash into myself

Repetitious habit-forming

Self-inflictedness



Inner, innermost, most person

It's so hard to be

Feeling good to not feel bad

Is way too weird for me



I wish and wish and wish

Someone else would come around

Habit-forming hang together

No one comes around now



It's no fair it takes so long

And comes around too late

Wonder why it's so easy

To feel the way I hate

It's so hard to turn around and say yeah



Anesthesizing, never-minding

Fill yourself with crap

What goes in, is coming out

You can't escape that



Inner, innermost, most person

You could dare to be

Bigger than the biggest head

But not as empty



I wish and wish and wish

Someone else would throw me down

Like it's supposed to

Like i'm used to

No one comes around now



It's no fair it takes so long

And comes around too late

Wonder why it's so easy

To be the way I hate

It's so hard to turn around and say yeah