so much that i can't say to you

my voice shakes from the hurt that i hide

ashamed of my existence

and of my petty often wounded pride

i'd like to come home to see you

and to catch your sickness by the bedside

but then you'd know how much i really need you



all the love in an instant

makes my life stop

but then my hate for you

makes my feelings altogether drop



if only i were blind to your selfish fling

and your desperate cause

and didn't press you for the details

that threaten my physical flaws



i'd like to come home to see you

and embrace your illness under soft light

but then you'd know how much i really need you



all the love in an instant

makes my life stop

but then my hate for you

makes my feelings altogether drop



so much that i can say to you

with affection that i burn inside

you're aching from the distance

avoiding strain that's running still alive

if only i could heal you in the sprinkling of the ocean side

but then you'd know how much i really love you



all the love in an instant

makes my life stop

but then my hate for you

makes my feelings altogether drop