Still awake on a winters day

skies are gray and it's cold

Smoke signals from my last cigarette

Lets me know that it's finally getting old

Everybody hates me for the night before

The man you saw wasn't me

And now there's blood upon the bathroom floor

I've got a disease



Wait a while all I need is a friend

Come on stay a while won't you please understand



I'm fucked up with nothing ahead by the end

I know that I'll never get sober

And I'm fed up with this miserable life after death

I know that I've taken my last breath



Memories of how it used to be

Painted thick on my walls

Cold illusions pumping through my veins

Felt them there but I didn't hear them call

Washed away all my darkest fears

Shoved them down to my soul

I keep them aged llike a vintage wine

I'm sure they'll come out when they're ready to go