until this big revue

i thought i'd figured out

no release from the pressure

growing strong

confirmation from outside is a luxury

but without i have to dig for the reasons

found to live inject my life with meaning

suffering from pains

i needed a cure placed my attention

in what could make a difference

in my life all i wished for before

was a reason to go on

found in a tune hollow existence

a grim prospect secured a distance

and without i'm nothing

sometimes i picture a life

a picture i can't have denied

it with this therapy

i use to define identity

what's lost in me

to where i realize has how been refined

security's no option

invested all i had against recourse

accepted rejection by decisions

to ignore average life

i was always so sure

that the answer lay beyond the prescribed path

refused admission to my escape

provided the stage

i need to realize/confirmed in my eyes