Searching for the meaning of existence

The very gist of happiness I've found

Flowing from the end of syringe needle

Filling bitter emptiness inside



He speaks to me through spasms in my veins

The one who has the answers to all questions



He watches me wherever I go

With a gaze that pierces darkness

All troubles melt in ghastly flow

While I succumb to blindness



Centuries of misery

For a single day of peace

The price to pay for useless pride

Torment for my sins



The venom pulsing through my veins

Like the black currents of Styx

Across which my soul is floating toward the haunted shores



I will not return to slavor

Worshiping the worthless

Lead a manequin's existence in an empty shell



But once the poison loses all its magic power

Shatering the illusions of my crystal tower

Golden shine of Jacob's stairway swiftly disappear

Angels turn to demons

Ejecting me from heaven into hell



Once again my heart will heal, time will dry my tears

I'll attempt to fly again running from my fears

Only to end up once more deeper than before

Crossing into nether regions passed the point of no return



Wandering about in ether, searching for the promise land

Always under the watchfull eye of my master

Who once gave me all the power but took away all love

And soon He's gonna rid my eyes of their luster



Elevated by His power I feel mightier than all

Yet forever in the groove of the one who has my soul

Captive to the voice of Erebus



Destined to remain imprisoned to His morbid influence

Handled and manipulated like a puppet by His will

While my suffering and burning fuels his existence

Till