It's four o' clock

The TV's on

My mind is shut off and my own thoughts are gone

I change the channel

I change my mind

I change my life I want to leave it all behind

'Cause I don't have a mind of my own

I am influenced by everything I see

And I can't help it now

Everything in my life just thinks for me



Can't help this habit I'm in love with my disease

Worshiping my idle time a life I cannot seize

Trapped by depression and I sleep all day

But zanax, valium, attavan makes it all ok

It's so much more than a cry for attention

No loving hands can soothe this ache

So much more than a war with the world

It's my own degradation it's my own self hate

I preach my pessimism

Right out loud to anyone who'll listen

I'm not afraid to be alive

I'm afraid to be alone



Late at night my monsters find me

From under the bed or right out of my past

All alone with nobody to talk to

Sanity gets put to the test

I close my eyes but I'm still haunted

Sometimes I get too twisted to sleep

As all my world crumbles all around me

Inspirations become admissions of defeat



'Cause I don't have a mind of my own

Everything in my life just thinks for me