oh my god! my god this can't be happening!

god tell me, tell me this isn't real!

i can't believe all that i have foreseen is
finally happening.

i cannot for a single second stand the way i
feel.

i always knew.

i always saw it coming.

enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.

i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel
nothing,

i never wanted to cease to exist,

just disappear.

fear memories are all that lie ahead.

never have i felt so lost.

memories dull my senses.

fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.

never have i felt so dead.

once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing.

i am the once embraced abandoned one.

i raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of
finding healing;

no relief was mine,

i was burnt, by the sun.