Oh my god! my god this can't be happening!

God tell me, tell me this isn't real!

I can't believe all that i have foreseen is finally happening.

I cannot for a single second stand the way i feel.

I always knew.

I always saw it coming.

Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.

I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,

I never wanted to cease to exist,

Just disappear.

Fear memories are all that lie ahead.

Never have i felt so lost.

Memories dull my senses.

Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.

Never have i felt so dead.

Once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing.

I am the once embraced abandoned one.

I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;

No relief was mine,

I was burnt, by the sun.