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I will never change.

No matter how hard I try...



Letting down all my family and friends

They think I am different, well that depends.

If different means not changing one fucking bit

Well then, I guess that I'm definitely it.

Do they see inside of my black soul?

Can they see the empty, monstrous hole?

There is no one to blame except for myself

I thought I addressed it, when I just put it on the shelf.

Afraid to admit my easy defeat

Could've gotten some help or some sympathy at least.

Pride is my downfall and my major crutch

I look back on the past and realize...

I haven't change that much.



I will never change

No matter how hard I try,

It's easier to not ask why.

It's a battle I was meant to lose

I wish that I could choose,

But it's an ever-bleeding wound.

I will never, never change.



Crying won't help, it will only sting

The hurt I sustained when I tried to fight those things.

Salt on an open wound found on my heart

Caused by the escaping good that left me in the dark.

How many times have I tried in vain to hope?

How many separate times will I reach the end of my rope?

I'm sick of fighting a war that can't be won

I'll just wave the white flag, then it'll finally be done.





I will never change

No matter how hard I try,

It's easier to not ask why.

It's a battle I was meant to lose

I wish that I could choose,

But it's an ever-bleeding wound.

I will never, never change.



So sick and tired

Of this shit!

I don't want to be like this!

Go away!

Never return!

I don't want to feel this hurt...



I can't remember