I fought against the bottle,

But I had to do it drunk 

Took my diamond to the pawnshop 

But that dont make it junk.



I know that Im forgiven,

But I dont know how I know

I dont trust my inner feelings 

Inner feelings come and go.



How come you called me here tonight?

How come you bother

With my heart at all?

You raise me up in grace,

Then you put me in a place,

Where I must fall.



Too late to fix another drink 

The lights are going out 

Ill listen to the darkness sing 

I know what thats about.



I tried to love you my way,

But I couldnt make it hold.

So I closed the Book of Longing

And I do what I am told.



How come you called me here tonight?

How come you bother with my heart at all?

You raise me up in grace,

Then you put me in a place,

Where I must fall.



I fought against the bottle,

But I had to do it drunk 

Took my diamond to the pawnshop 

But that dont make it junk.